I am so stressed and so tired of feeling this way! DH and I work soo hard and it never seems to pay off! I work as a nanny/ childcare provider and I take jobs and put my full heart into them to only be screwed over with non payment or job loss a few months later! (never from something I do always from "money issues") I am so over it! DH is working his but off through the ARMY and school to make us a better life, he is at the Kelley School of Business and maintaining a 3.4 or so and spend 40-50hrs a week studying/ at school etc. we never get any money help and we survive on hardly anything and never ask for help. I tried to get food stamps and cannot because DH is a student. Our car broke down last week and we do not have the money to fix it. So I am a planner and I have saved a little each pay check to put towards the kids Christmas and due to me being off work, Addy being born early, and all the other crap we have had to deal with this year it now looks like no Christmas, no presents, no tree, no ornaments! Hell I don't even know if I can afford to make side dishes this week for Thanksgiving! I am tired of struggling! I can't stop crying... I feel hopeless! BLAH!
